Hum de hum.

Today was fun. I went out with friends, who I’ve not seen in a long while. And a guy called Jamie. Who, as nice as he may be, needs to learn boundaries. Seriously. If a girl hasn’t wanted to go out with you for months, she never will. Get over it. Or at least try to, and stop making passes.

Anyway, it was nice. But I’m sad. If there was one person that I don’t really want just pulled out of my life, it’s Liv. I’d go so mental if she left. I don’t want her to, AT ALL. Her Dad…uh, don’t even get me fucking started. What a loser. He’s an ARSEHOLE. He can’t treat her the way he has, and pull her away from his life. His marriage didn’t fail because of her. It failed because of him. She doesn’t want to be with him, she wants to be near Grace and look after her Mum in case she gets really ill again.

And most of all, I don’t think she wants to make friends all over again. And I don’t want to lose a best friend. Never never never. She’s too important.

Life here seems alright, and I’m started to get focused. Properly, this time. Not that old, ‘Yeah! I’m gonna get focused! No one can stop me!’ kind of thing, but it seems to be happening on it’s own. And I am enjoying myself. I don’t know. Is this what happiness feels like? Probably not. I still feel suicidal and like cutting and hurting myself because I don’t like myself, and I probably never will.

I’m stupid.

Anyway, TTFN blogging world. It’s nice to talk again. .